part of my "family" has left me, and her suffering has now ended. Nancy, who has been like a grandma to me, passed away yesterday morning with the peace of mind knowing that the people that loved her were with her. I have a hard time putting into words how I am feeling right now. There are so many emotions that are going through my mind. I am angry that she can't be here to watch her young grandchildren grow up and I am angry with myself because I didn't stop to see her more when it mattered. I am sad that she left behind such a wonderful family that now has to try to fill the void that will be left. I am scared that her family will have this rift now. And lastly, I am at peace. I am at peace knowing that she is at peace. She is no longer suffering and she got to say her goodbye's. The last thing that Nancy said to me was "I love you too" and I am not sure if she even realized who I was at that point, but I know that she did love me. She loved all of us "Kids" and we sure are going to miss her. I pray that her family will remember all of the good times that they shared and all that she gave to them. I pray that they take comfort knowing that Nancy was a fighter who just didn't have the energy to fight anymore, but would have if she could.
Nancy wasn't only a babysitter to me while I was growing up, she was like my own grandma. She always watched out for me and my family, and always wanted to know what was new in my life. She was so happy for me when she found out I was pregnant, and loved to see Mattie. Walking into her kitchen will never be the same. I will miss seeing her there at the table with her coffee and her flyswatter in her other hand. I will miss hearing her "Shut the door" or yelling at one of her kids. Oh their house was always so much fun to be in, so busy and so full of life. I hope that it will still stay that way.
I love you Nancy, please watch over all of us.
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